Excerpt from Chapter 8:
								
								
								A boxcar transport waited on the railway siding, 
								each car fitted out with a table and two benches 
								bolted to the floor at one end of the wagon 
								while the rest of the area was covered with 
								straw for sleeping. Officers were accommodated 
								in a sleeper car up front. A great deal of time 
								and effort went into loading and securing the 
								equipment on the flat top carriages for the long 
								haul into Russia and I remember one of our 
								motorcycle dispatch riders, in a hurry to get 
								back to the train, on his last run missed a bend 
								and killed himself hitting a tree. Our first 
								casualty and we were not even in combat yet. 
								Unteroffizier Langhans, who had rejoined us 
								after his vacation in the dungeons of Rheims's 
								prison, didn't make us feel any better with his 
								superior wisdom, saying that most of us would 'snuff'it 
								anyhow before the war was finished - and he 
								proved to be right there.. Our transport CO 
								called us together for a few last-minute words 
								and told us that time for action had finally 
								come and he expected everybody to do his duty 
								acording to orders and our military oath. He 
								informed us that our destination would be 
								somewhere in the Ukraine, southern Russia.
								
								
								
								Late that evening our transport pulled out of 
								Mourmelon and we crossed into Germany during the 
								night, to Saarbrucken, over the Rhine at 
								Ludwigshafen and into Mannheim where we came to 
								a halt on a siding outside the main station for 
								morning coffee and porridge provided by a mobile 
								field kitchen, plus toilet facilities - a quick 
								stop as transport followed transport from west 
								to east. These `comfort stops' were repeated 
								strategically along the whole route, with 
								precision timing which must have been an 
								absolute nightmare for the German rail 
								authority. The indications were that something 
								big was in the making over in Russia, as indeed 
								it was. We didn't know it then that we were part 
								of Army Group South, and were destined to take 
								part in the spring offensive into Stalingrad and 
								the Caucasus.
								
								
								
								The weather was reasonably moderate, being the 
								second half of April, so we travelled with the 
								sliding doors open, with just a bar across to 
								prevent anybody falling out. We spent a lot of 
								time just waving back at people, who cheered us 
								as we passed through the stations and the 
								villages. We didn't lose anybody tumbling off 
								the wagon but I lost my steel helmet. It must 
								have come off the hook and disappeared through 
								the opening and down the embankment somewhere 
								between Ehrfurt and Weissenfels. I hoped it 
								wasn't an omen and was quite sorry because I had 
								the feeling that very shortly I might be in need 
								of it and Unteroffizier Langhans's remark that I 
								would probably get shot for losing it when we 
								reached our destination gave me something else 
								to think about....
								
								
								
								We journeyed on past Leipzig, Dresden into Upper 
								Silesia to Breslau. The border crossing into 
								Poland was a little station called Morgenrot. 
								Morgenrot is German for the early morning glow 
								just before sunrise and it also was the title of 
								a song the First World War soldiers sang when 
								they got ready for a dawn, 'going over the top', 
								only to be mown down by a hail of bullets and 
								gored by scores of bayonets from the defenders 
								of the trenches on the opposite side.
								
								
								'Morgenrot, Morgenrot, leuchtest mir zum fruhen 
								Tot.
								
								
								Bald wird die Trompete blasen dann muss ich mein 
								leben lassen,
								
								
								
								Ich und mancher Kamerad.'
								
								
								'The dawn light is the sign of early death,
								
								
								
								The bugle will sound and then I will have to 
								lose my life,
								
								
								
								I and a few of my mates.'
								
								
								As we stood on the station siding the whole 
								train started to sing that old soldiers'song, 
								which sounded quite good and was convincing 
								enough, only to be told by the stationmaster to 
								shut up as he had heard it from every transport 
								passing through his station. Well, I suppose we 
								couldn't blame him for that; it must have got a 
								bit monotonous after a while. Leaving Morgenrot 
								also meant we had left Germany and were 
								travelling on Polish rails. Security measures 
								were tightened considerably with guards posted 
								at every stop, with live ammunition in their 
								carbines. The car doors were left only slightly 
								ajar, and we settled down in the straw to sleep.
								
								
								We passed Krakow, Tarnow, Jaroslow and entered 
								Soviet Russia at Przemysl, the foothills of the 
								Carpathian Mountains. We knew exactly when the 
								border was crossed as every mile- stone along 
								the line had the Soviet Red Star on the top. We 
								crossed Galicia on the way to Lemberg (Lvov) and 
								came to a halt by the side of a supply transport 
								also eastward bound. Langhans had it already 
								worked out. He suspected that that train was 
								carrying provisions -food- though food to 
								Langhans was Schnaps or vodka. Actually, he 
								looked in need of something more substantial, 
								like an extra length of salami; he was very thin 
								and must have lost a few pounds on his 'holiday' 
								in prison. We never dared ask him whether he had 
								had a guard to clean his boots, or maybe he'd 
								had to do that task himself
								
								
								It was getting dark so Langhans thought we 
								should go and investigate, which was pretty hard 
								to do as every boxcar was closed and sealed. It 
								was also very risky as the transport had guards 
								on either side and no doubt were prepared to 
								shoot if necessary. When it was dark enough 
								Unteroffizier Langhans went to the guard nearest 
								our wagon and involved him in a conversation to 
								distract him from looking in our direction, 
								while we undid the seal and opened the sliding 
								door on the boxcar immediately opposite us and 
								bit by bit slid back the door. The slightest 
								noise would have spelt disaster. The car was 
								filled with identical boxes and we grabbed the 
								nearest and passed it over to our wagon, 
								carefully closing the door, though we couldn't 
								replace the seal. We hid the stolen box under a 
								pile of straw, covering it with our gear, then 
								signalled to Kapo that the mission was 
								accomplished, at the same time hoping our train 
								would move out quickly before somebody 
								discovered the break in. We were really scared 
								to death as we all realised that discovery of 
								what we had done would have meant instant firing 
								squad.
								
								
								
								Thankfully, our train started to move and we 
								started to breath again and as soon as we'd 
								increased speed we got out our box and began 
								opening it, full of anticipation - a bit like 
								opening a Christmas parcel. But what a 
								disappointment it was: candles, a whole box of 
								'Hindenburg lights'! Just imagine being shot for 
								pinching candles. Actually Langhans was quite 
								pleased as he predicted that from then on 
								candlelight would be in demand so suggested we 
								take as many as we could safely stow in our gear 
								and throw the rest out of the car.
								
								
								
								We reached Ternopol in the morning, well into 
								the Ukrainian prairie which was dead flat with 
								wheat fields in spring growth as far as one 
								could see, broken only by farming communities 
								(Kolkhoz). These were all state owned and had 
								the inevitable watchtower in the centre from 
								which the Kommisar kept an eye on the workers 
								and the community at large and ensured they were 
								all good communists by having them listen to 
								broadcasts of national importance and State 
								propaganda on his radio. Langhans told us this; 
								he knew it all and we had no reason to doubt his 
								tales since he grew up in East Prussia, 
								practically next door to Russia.
								
								
								
								We journeyed on past Proskurov, Zhmerinka, 
								Vinnitsa, Fastov and eventually pulled into Kiev 
								main station. Kiev is on the river Dnieper, on 
								the embankment overlooking the river valley. We 
								stopped briefly outside the station then moved 
								on again, crossing the mighty Dnieper on the 
								eastern side of Kiev. By the time it flows 
								through Kiev it is already some 600 miles long, 
								having its origin at Sychevka, about 150 miles 
								west of Moscow in the Smolensk area. We were now 
								heading for Borispol and on to Poltava, where we 
								were told our pilots had flown their FWs to. 
								There we expected to leave the train but instead 
								we travelled on to Krasnograd to a railway 
								siding where our flak unit was detached, shunted 
								around a bit and then hooked on to another 
								transport destined for Novo-Moskovsk and 
								ultimately to Dnepropetrovsk.
								
								
								
								It was now the beginning of May. We had been in 
								transit for more than a week when our train 
								pulled into the waterfront rail yard in 
								Dnepropetrovsk, and judging from the widespread 
								damage all around there must have been a fair 
								bit of fighting for possession of the place. We 
								unloaded our equipment at the water's edge and 
								were allocated one of the undamaged harbour 
								buildings for our accommodation.
								
								
								
								The Dnieper is a very big river, made wide by 
								the huge Dneproges Dam some 40 miles downstream, 
								part of the Zaporozh'ye hydro-electric works. 
								The wreck of a sunken gunboat was visible in the 
								middle, showing part of the superstructure and 
								masthead and the muzzle of the foredeck gun. To 
								the left was a large steel bridge carrying the 
								railway line to Pavlograd, Zaporozh'ye and 
								ultimately to Sevastopol in the Crimea. Down by 
								the river an enterprising old Russian was 
								renting old row boats in exchange for food. We 
								were too busy that day but decided when the 
								opportunity arose we would exchange some of our 
								provisions for a boat and get a look at that 
								sunken gunboat.
								
								
								We went down to the river in the afternoon the 
								following day, three of our crew. Ferdle, our 
								driver and Ludwig his offsider, couldn't join us 
								as the vehicle had to be looked after and taken 
								to the motor pool at the Panzer depot in town. 
								We got a boat in exchange for cigarettes and 
								some shaving cream which we gave the old 'gospodin' 
								as skin lotion, and he assured us everything was 
								'kharasho'. We checked the old boat just the 
								same to make sure the bottom didn't fall out the 
								moment we stepped aboard and, indeed, it seemed 
								to be 'kharasho' so we pushed off and started 
								paddling.
								
								
								
								Well, it wasn't so 'kharasho' as we soon 
								discovered. We were only about 10 metres or so 
								away from the bank when we were snatched by a 
								strong current which whirled us round in circles 
								and we were heading almost out of control for 
								the sharp-edged concrete pillar bases of the 
								steel bridge downstream. The bridge grew quickly 
								and alarmingly in height as the four of us 
								paddled for our lives, realising once through 
								the bridge there was no way of turning back and 
								the swift flowing river would take us over the 
								dam. The old man at the river's edge probably 
								was hoping we would do just that. Through 
								tremendous effort, straining the paddles to 
								almost breaking point but mostly by sheer luck, 
								we eventually managed to get out of the current 
								and scrambled up the embankment, no more than 20 
								metres from the bridge, and the last glimpse we 
								had of the boat was when it quickly disappeared 
								between two pillars under the bridge. 
								Unteroffizier Langhans was furious when we 
								returned, mainly for not letting him know what 
								we were up to without his permission.
								
								
								
								We had no more inclination nor was there time to 
								go near the river again as the next day our 
								personnel carriers were replaced with brand new 
								Krupp halftracks, and our guns removed from the 
								trailers and mounted on them. Ferdinand and the 
								other drivers spent the whole afternoon getting 
								instructions in operating the vehicles as the 
								steering is done by the use of chain brake 
								levers as well as by coventional steering wheel. 
								I was relieved to be issued a new steelhelmet I 
								had the feeling I would soon be in need of one.
								
								
								
								Rumours circuled that we were getting ready for 
								something big. There's always some truth in 
								rumours and indeed this one was no exception. 
								Unknown to us the German offensive into the 
								Izyum-Barvenkovo salient, codenamed Fridericus 
								I, was planned for 18 May by Fieldmarshal von 
								Bock of Army Group South, which included the 4th 
								Panzer Army (Hoth), 6th Army (von Paulus) from 
								the Volchansk and Balakleya area and the 1st 
								Panzer Army (Kleist) from the Kramatorsk Sector 
								South. But it wasn't exactly working out the way 
								it was planned.
								
								
								
								By 9 May (42) Marshal Stalin's top General, 
								Timoschenko, who supposedly was unaware of the 
								massive German buildup, launched the Russian 
								surprise attack from the Volchansk sector with 
								his 28th Army, followed on 16 May by the 38th 
								and 6th Armies from Izyum and Barvenkovo with 
								the intention of encircling Kharkov and 
								advancing on Dnepropetrovsk. This involved 
								almost half a million Russian troops, 3000 tanks 
								and 2500 heavy artillery guns, in fact 
								everything General Timoschenko had at his 
								disposal.
								
								
								
								We were ordered to move out in a northerly 
								direction towards Krasnograd which by then had 
								already come under attack from the Russian 6th 
								Army who had advanced from the Barvenkova 
								salient. Langhans was told to remove the forward 
								armour plates from our gun, which seemed a bit 
								odd to me as I was the one who had to stand 
								beside the barrel to feed in the ammunition and 
								I regarded the armour plates as my protection. 
								He explained that we were ordered to give anti 
								aircraft protection on the Rollbahn (main supply 
								route to the front line) and it was thought the 
								armour plates were a bit too cumbersome for a 
								rapid 360 degree turn. "You'd only get your head 
								split open by the sharp edges", said our 
								cheerful leader. Well, he should know, he'd seen 
								it all before. We reached the Rollbahn shortly 
								after midnight. The sky was overcast, rain was 
								drizzling down which, together with the spring 
								thaw, turned the ground on either side into a 
								quagmire, traversible only by tracked vehicles.
								
								
								
								Although originally attached to von Kleist's 1st 
								Panzer Army it became necessary to transfer two 
								or three divisions of his armour to reinforce 
								von Paulus' 6th Army which was under heavy 
								pressure from Timoschenko's attack on Kharkov so 
								we found ourselves part of that contingent going 
								north. Just as well we didn't know the magnitude 
								of Timoshenko's Army, though that wasn't our 
								immediate worry just then. It was the conditions 
								on the Rollbahn, the never ceasing traffic. Tank 
								after tank rolled on either side of us, 
								intermingled with supply vehicles of all 
								descriptions, but of all possible vehicles the 
								sight of a petrol tanker immediatly behind us 
								was just what we did not need to assure a 
								reasonably safe passage. Also, some three 
								vehicles ahead we spotted the markings of a 
								dangerous goods carrying truck, probably loaded 
								to the top with ammunition. It felt like we were 
								sitting on a submarine's deck with all hatches 
								closed and the damn thing was just about to 
								dive. I was scared right through and just hoped 
								the drizzle would become rain and keep the 
								Russian planes away. I'm sure everybody felt the 
								same, even the redoubtable Langhans kept his 
								thoughts to himself.
								
								
								
								It all changed next morning. The drizzle had 
								stopped, the clouds began to lift and we scanned 
								the sky and all of a sudden they were there. 
								Four Yakovlev fighters appeared on the horizon 
								at 2 o'clock. It was Langhans who made the 
								recognition. Russian Yak fighters were 
								formidable machines with the speed of 373 mph, a 
								2 cm canon (same as ours) and 2 heavy machine 
								guns. We had learnt the statistics almost by 
								heart during our training seeing the planes on 
								the screen but now they were coming towards us, 
								real and threatening! Now they were planes with 
								inbuilt deadly canons and machine guns and we 
								realised they were unmistakeably enemy aircraft.
								
								
								They completed a full circle at low level then 
								straightened out in attack formation from 12 
								o'clock and opened up with everything they had. 
								Somewhere up front one of our guns commenced 
								firing and the noise of the plane's canons and 
								the tracers coming from the muzzle of our gun 
								ahead of us pushed the fear from my mind 
								momentarily and since we were on full alert and 
								supposed to be ready to shoot at split second 
								notice I rammed home my first magazine of deadly 
								projectiles, the first of many, many more I 
								would handle before the war came to its bitter 
								end. Bitter for Germany, glorious for all its 
								opponents. We joined in with our forward gun and 
								emptied a full magazine into the planes as they 
								skimmed along the Rollbahn at low level. Jakob 
								guided the barrel simply by aiming his tracers 
								into the target and I forgot I was scared but 
								was quickly reminded again when a tremendous 
								explosion, a huge fireball followed by a 
								terrific shock wave came from behind us, 
								knocking me flat to the platform and throwing 
								Langhans over the side. The petrol tanker had 
								been hit and just exploded.
								
								
								The attack was over as quickly as it began and 
								the planes veered off in an easterly direction, 
								leaving chaos, destruction, mangled bodies and 
								screaming wounded, most of them terribly burnt. 
								Langhans suffered a few bruises but I was all 
								right. Jakob cut his cheek hitting his head on 
								the guidance system and Hans and Anton were 
								unrecognisable, covered in slime and mud from 
								the mire they had jumped into trying to get 
								clear of the road. Ferdinand and Ludwig who had 
								jumped out of the driver's cabin had taken 
								shelter by the chains on the lee side of the 
								vehicle throughout the attack and suffered no 
								damage but we were all badly shaken. We were 
								later informed that one of the Yaks had crash 
								landed and exploded a few kilometres to the 
								east. Langhans complimented us for a job well 
								done on our first action. For what I don't know. 
								I hadn't done anything apart from hanging on to 
								the magazine I put in the block and was still 
								shaking and wished I could have stayed at 
								home...
								
								
								
								Tanks got busy clearing the Rollbahn of 
								wreckage, and medics comforted the casualties 
								waiting for ambulances to take them to the 
								nearest first aid station. Ahead in the 
								direction of Kharkow a fierce tank battle raged, 
								sounding like thunder before the storm. At 
								Merefa Timoschenko's tanks had succeeded in 
								cutting the Rollbahn at several places and their 
								momentum enabled them to penetrate deep into the 
								German lines. With their infantry riding on top, 
								Russian KV tanks (46 ton monsters) battled with 
								the German armour and infantry. Heavy smoke 
								covered the area and the Russian Illyushin 2 
								dive bombers were hammering the German tank 
								formations. We scanned the sky in all directions 
								for approaching enemy aircraft and saw west of 
								Merefa an air battle in progress between German 
								Messerschmitt fighters and Russian MiGs flying 
								escort for the IL 2 (Sturmoviks) - or 'Rollbahnschreck' 
								(highway terror) as we called them.
								
								
								Sturmovik in Russian means dive bomber. They 
								were formidable planes, virtually indestructible 
								from the ground with anything less than 88 mm 
								calibre guns, so Langhans informed us. Indeed, 
								they spelt curtains for anything they dived on, 
								as we soon discovered. Even Langhans changed 
								colour a little at sight of the approaching 
								destruction. First they circled round in tight 
								formation. Why did they have to be that slow; we 
								will all be dead the moment they dive on us, I 
								was thinking. I was scared stiff and so was 
								everyone else, only nobody dared show his 
								feelings. Langhans made up his mind, and I was 
								beginning to admire this cool machine in 
								uniform. "Everybody off the gun carrier," he 
								ordered "except Jakob and Max." I wished he 
								hadn't said that as I already had one foot over 
								the side, but as he had no intention of jumping 
								I remained. Jakob was in the seat with his feet 
								on the firing pedals, and I rammed a magazine of 
								20s into the breech. "Keep the barrel on the 
								fighters, and I'll tell you when to jump" 
								Langhans shouted. One of the MiGs banked sharply 
								and dived, coming in from behind our convoy and 
								commenced firing, its bullets going straight 
								over our heads, slamming into the vehicle in 
								front of us, already abandoned by its driver and 
								crew. Some six vehicles ahead one of our guns 
								received the full blast of the fighter's machine 
								guns, knocking its canon out of action, killing 
								the Kapo and wounding the ammunition gunner, the 
								same position I had on our gun. A second MiG 
								pulled out from its dive and came in on our 
								left, showing his whole underbelly to our gun 
								barrel, and received the entire magazine, some 
								of which must have hurt as he went off 
								eastwards, trailing smoke.
								
								
								
								Meanwhile, the Illyushin Sturmoviks having 
								completed their circle were forming up for their 
								dive when suddenly heavy gunfire thundered to 
								the west of us where a battery of 88 mm guns had 
								just found their range and directed their heavy 
								shells into them. "Jump" yelled Langhans, though 
								I had already done so, diving straight under the 
								chains of the Panzer IV parked on our right and 
								Langhans and Jakob dived under our vehicle for 
								protection from falling shrapnel from the 
								exploding 88 mm above us. Then a horrible 
								thought entered my mind: I was lying under an 
								arsenal of high explosive weaponry and should 
								the Panzer get hit I was gone too...
								
								
								
								The 88s did a good job. One Illyushin got a 
								direct hit and disintegrated, another didn't 
								pull out of his dive and exploded on impact, and 
								a few more limped eastwards more or less hurt, 
								joined by two remaining MiG fighters. They will 
								be back soon, I thought. Then heavy Russian 
								artillery of 15.2 calibre homed in on the 
								Rollbahn from some position east of Merefa. The 
								shells howled through the air and exploded deep 
								in the mud with a deafening 'whoompf', throwing 
								the soil into huge mushrooms of mud, lumps of 
								dirt and hot shrapnel of all sizes. Angst and 
								cold sweat! I was convinced I would never see 
								home again.
								
								
								We abandoned the Rollbahn for the field to the 
								left and headed for three German Marder assault 
								guns stuck in the mud. We slid more than drove 
								but our chains held us above ground. The Marders 
								were firing into a woodland slightly uphill and 
								to the right on the approaches to Merefa where 
								the Russian infantry was dug in. They were 
								strafing the Rollbahn with their slow firing 
								Maxims (machine guns) and quickly answered back 
								by German MG 34s and concentrated rifle fire. We 
								watched Russian KV tanks emerge from the trees 
								carrying their infantry on top who quickly 
								dismounted and went to ground in a futile 
								attempt to avoid getting hit when German machine 
								guns picked them off as they tried to join their 
								comrades near the Rollbahn.
								
								
								
								The strip of woodland must have been full of 
								Russians. Rows and rows of brown figures emerged 
								from within, hit the mud firing their rifles, 
								with bayonets in place. Some got up for a few 
								jumps then down again, and quite a few staid 
								down forever. "Penal units, filled with 
								samakhonka" Langhans told us. They had little 
								alternative but to run forward into the German 
								fire, for if they turned back they would only be 
								shot by their own kommissars. Langhans knew it 
								all. Their losses were horrendous.
								
								
								
								Somewhere east of the Rollbahn yellow-red 
								fingers streaked across the sky with a fearful 
								howling noise something like a fire engine 
								siren, hitting the field and Rollbahn in a chain 
								explosion - Katyusha rockets! Fortunately we 
								were well clear of them. We had positioned 
								ourselves behind one of the Marders for 
								protection and began firing, concentrating on 
								the lines advancing from the woods, magazine 
								after magazine until the barrel became so hot it 
								had to be changed. We carried two spares and I 
								managed to remove the almost red-hot one, throw 
								it overboard and insert the spare in about five 
								seconds flat.
								
								
								
								The KVs came closer, homing in on the Marders 
								and a shell ripped into the side of the one 
								closest to the woods, disintegrating the chain 
								like a heap of match sticks. Then the German 88s 
								opened up as the Russian tanks came into their 
								most effective firing range and after two salvos 
								4 KVs were left burning. We ceased firing when 
								our tanks and infantry commenced counter 
								attacking and by late that night the Rollbahn 
								was again in German hands. The crew of the 
								wrecked Marder had been lucky; apart from being 
								shaken up they suffered no casualties. That 
								night we remained on full alert, not very sure 
								what the next day would have in store. Luckily 
								we had the Marder crews for company so could 
								divide the watches and we got through the night 
								safely.
								
								
								
								Next morning two more Marders arrived to pull 
								the two undamaged heavy self-propelled guns out 
								of the mud. We managed to get moving on our own 
								chains and the third Marder was abandoned. We 
								moved towards the woodland and the wrecked KVs, 
								past the field to the left which was covered 
								with great numbers of corpses of Russian 
								infantry, lying as they'd been cut down the 
								previous afternoon. We encountered more tanks, 
								some still burning, Russian KVs and German 
								Panzer IVs alike, more bodies in the mud and 
								quite a number of dead horses, casualties of 
								Ivan's cavalry divisions. The air was filled 
								with smoke and the sweetish smell of burnt 
								flesh. We got to the Rollbahn again, passed 
								Merefa and into Kharkov that same day.
								
								
								
								Kharkov was burning from end to end. The most 
								devastation was around the huge tractor factory, 
								caused by heavy Russian artillery, Illyushin 
								attacks and 'Stalin Orgels' (Katyushas) in their 
								futile attempt to regain a hold on the city. Our 
								group was held back in Kharkov for the next two 
								days, awaiting replacement for two of our 
								damaged half-tracks. While there we received 
								permission to hook up our armour plates, which 
								made me feel a lot better as I had come to the 
								conclusion that to have the head split open on 
								one of them was preferable to a bullet through 
								the brain. On second thoughts, maybe there's not 
								much difference...
								
								
								
								As soon as our replacements arrived we moved out 
								of Kharkov in the direction of Balacleya. We 
								reached Zmiyev on the Severnyy- Donetz river and 
								were ordered to dig ourselves in for the defence 
								of the river crossing which was of vital 
								importance to elements of von Paulus's 6th Army 
								and the LI Corps under the command of General 
								von Seydlitz Kurzbach in their attack towards 
								Izyum to join up with General von Mackensen's 
								3rd Panzer Corps of Kleist's Panzer Army coming 
								up from Barvenkovo in the Izyum salient.